I am what I am, I am who I am.

January 12, 2009

I apologize… for nothing. I’m sorry if the way that I am….. bugs you.

And that is the truth. After reading this you should take away two messages.

1. Self help people can’t help you.
2. Accept who you are and stop try to change yourself, because you can’t.

All these self help people are as screwed up as you and me. They are writing to justify themselves, their actions and sometime to line their pockets. Take note, there is nothing wrong with you. Say it with me. “There is nothing wrong with me” Feel better? I do. You know why? Its because you can stop trying to “fix” yourself, “improve” yourself, “fulfill your potential” now. You are who you are, accept it, because you can’t change it. Think you can? Well you can’t, you are like a rubber band. You can stretch for a while, change shape but when you get tired, and you will, you will go back to your original shape. So enjoy your shape. Take what you are and move on. Live life as you are, not as you want to be. You will get further.

I have spent so much energy “growing” myself, “molding” myself. And I am the same. The only difference is that I was miserable because I couldn’t change and felt that I should. Well I can’t and now I don’t want to. So I won’t.

Guess what? I feel better now than after every single self help course I have ever taken or read. You want to know why? Because there is peace in acceptance. This all sounds like self help mumbo jumbo right? Maybe it is but it is also the truth. Accept yourself for who you are because if you don’t NO ONE ELSE WILL!

It is so hard being someone else. And when you stop, or change or quit all those people you deceived will not like you anymore because you caused them a great inconvenience because you made them change their mind about you.

I have friends, good friends. They are good friends because I accept them for who their are. Even their faults…. especially their faults. I do not judge them, I accept them and live my life with them. I do not try to change them because that is harder than changing yourself.

Its like playing poker. You get all the cards you want except one. So use your “power of positive thinking” to “realize the card it wants to be”. Does the card change? Nope. Play it, trade it. Win or lose with it. Its a fun game and if you are not having fun stop playing.

So just accept who you are, accept the others around you, stop trying to change yourself and everything around you and just live. Peace will descend upon you as long as you stop judging yourself.

Now piss off and go do something you enjoy. I won’t judge you for it.

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